So, I have recently found my inspiration.
I have always been a writer. I can remember writing stories for fun as a child. I have always loved writing papers in school and have most recently enjoyed being a freelance writer.
I have always wanted to create a worthwhile blog. I have also always wanted to write a book. I just needed the right inspiration, the right purpose to drive me.
I have to give a big thanks to the Oprah show for giving me that inspiration. Never before in my life have I felt so moved and so completely geared up to help someone as I recently felt.
I watched the recent episode (airing on February 17, 2010) where Oprah's guests were John Wayne Gacy's sister and Jim Jones Jr. I felt such a pull for these people. I felt an immediate spark go off within myself and I knew my purpose as a writer. I have never been someone who has been sure of things. I have never been able to focus and come up with a clear plan, which is why I have yet to have a successful blog. This is also why I have never written a book.
My inspiration came from listening to the obvious pain that these individuals have felt. Each of them could not excuse the behaviors of their loved ones, but they still loved them. They loved the side of them that has been overshadowed by the evil nature of the notorious crimes for which they have committed. I want to write a book that portrays these family and friends. I want to show the side of these criminals that these individuals knew. I want to show why there were people out there who could love someone who was convicted of such evil.
Since I personally believe that there is some type of higher power that is beyond this world, I have come to the conclusion that no person could be born without a soul. I believe that when someone chooses to do something so bad that there is a reason behind it. Maybe that person went through some type of experience that was completely awful himself. Maybe that person tried to find an answer for the way that he was being treated and looked at things in the wrong way.
These people obviously have something within them that snaps and allows them to commit these horrible crimes. However, does that make the entire person evil? My thoughts are that no matter how evil these people are, there is still some part of them that is good. I choose to believe in the greater good of all people, without this belief I would have no choice but to think that there could not be a god of any type. As, how could a god or powerful being allow for someone to be born without a soul and allow that this person is born evil?
I want to inspire people to start to look at things differently. I want to show another side to a terrible tragedy and a horrific story. I want to portray the side of these people that others could love and show that love is possible within all people.
I am in no way saying that these people do not deserve to be punished or that their crimes should be forgiven. I still think that they need to pay for their crimes. However, I can not imagine the intensity of the pain that is felt by family and friends who love these people as they die to have someone celebrate their deaths. I can not bring myself to think that this pain is not just as great as anyone else's pain just because the person who has been put to death did something wrong.
Further, I do not believe in the death penalty. I used to at one point in my life but over time I have began to think about things in a different light. I do not understand how putting someone to death for putting someone else to death can be justified. I am also against war. I am against the idea of putting someone, no matter who it is, to death. I do not think that you can solve society's problems by killing those who kill. How can you teach that killing is wrong if you yourself do it?
I want to show others that there is this side of those that you might think of as evil. Behind ever Jim Jones or John Wayne Gacy there are the people who loved them. There are the family and friends who could have never imagined that they did these horrible things. There are those who have never been able to understand why their loved one would do something so wrong. I want to share their stories. I want to share their opinions and beliefs.
I realize that there are going to be those of you out there who hate me. I know that you will want to think about things that I am doing wrong. I realize that some of you can not think beyond your own opinions and that this is going to cause you to believe that I am a bad person or that I am saying that these people should not be punished. This is simply not the case. The point is that these people are people just like you and me. They are human beings that live, breathe and eat. However, somehow something within them has gone wrong. Somewhere they have lost their sight as to what is important in life and somehow they have chosen to go down a horrific path.